# Many overdue post are left untouched.

Went out for brunch at Mc'd & pool with a bunch of aliens yesterday. My brother, ZKang, Raymond & Jeremy.
So much fun to that extent i'd almost forgotten that school's near. Pool in the noon and resumed at night. :)

Oh yes, girls without eyeliners are beautiful.


Real upset, angry, heartbroken and sad. Just too terrible.
Hey, no such thing has ever happened in my life. Seriously. I felt like something piercing into my heart. I cried because i felt like my heart was literally broken. I mean it hurts! No, you're not listening to any dramatic stories.

Anyways, this 2 weeks have been crazy for me. I'm getting more sceptical about people now. Goodness sake, why such tragedy must happen only today? It breaks me so damn hard and i've school tomorrow. There's never a smile on me and i totally HATE that. Now, i understand it's actually pretty hard to deal with your own feelings. I've tons of friends asking me stuffs and to comfort them all. Now that i've woke up, i realized i'm more like bullshitting all along. I crapped about the facts of life yet i don't practise them. Guilty. I'm no longer the silly bubbly happy-go-lucky girl that makes my parents happy. Instead, i threw my negative feelings on them with my moody faces.

I always and forever thought i'm over it. Is it just me or you?
Since i've got a firm answer from you, i guess there's not much to crack my brain about. Anymore.
I should have known this long ago. Fairy tales don't end like what we want them to be. It's so hard. Still feeling pissed right now. I mean, i just don't want it that way! That's why, Emily and I were never wrong. BOYS ARE LIKE THAT. She'll love this a million times if she sees this. Also, tears shed no longer mean anything now. I thought i've ran out of them, seems like there are still plenty. You can me crybaby or whatever you want. But for you, the reason for me crying is still the same. I wonder haven't i get bored of it? Almost 3 years now, almost. If you dare to say it's because of hurting me, the beginning should be known as a mistake already.

Life's tiring. By God's grace, i'm still hanging in there.
I'm starting to learn not to plan too much in life or have fantasies about them. Because you'll never know if tomorrow arrives. Today itself has so much problems. What more do you expect? I need back the peace and joy from God.

2 months left for me to leave high school! I can't wait to do that maaaan! Gonna work double hard for SPM because i have had my fun in this 2 weeks. All the best to all fifth formers! :) Trying hard to stop slacking and thinking about you man. Why are you all over my head?

I can't wait to get my license!
XOXO