It feels so good reading Mindy's blog post, heeheehee! :) I feel so proud of her. FINALLY, she feels the love she has for 5 SC 1. And, I'm inspired to write one for my class as well. I shall leave it until all related events are over. Mein! :'( Laugh out loud.

Anyway, I did my shopping today with my mommy & sister. Found one, finally. BUT it looks so common & I don't quite like it... I mean I do. Just that it's a little bit too "everywhere"? Okay, no use explaining. You'll understand when we meet on the 14th! YAY. :D I can't wait to see all the beautiful boys & handsome girls!

So, we spent quality time with one another in the car today. We talkedddddddd & laughed. We kind of got ourselves into the topic of what I'm gonna do after this. Basically, mom & sis hope that I'll get myself settled down with an A-Level course first. They're considering of sending me to overseas though. That is if I do really well in the A-Levels that I'll be taking. Shall never forget that all is in God's hands. I'm nobody to make any decisions.

It's been 2 months odd since dad left. I asked myself over & over again whether am I actually responsible for everything? I just thought that it's my fault. I wish, I really do wish that I was a better daughter. He's a real joker. He just can't stop making me laugh and maybe that's why nowadays I love seeing my friends laugh as well. Perhaps it's still new for me. In everything I do, there's just flashbacks about him. What really makes me hanging on is that God said that it's just a temporary separation. I am not strong or whatever people says about me but my sister said to me "You're a big girl now". It's not the time for mom to take care of me. It's the other way round. Should I ever wail & mourn in front of my mom? I can't afford to make regretful decisions anymore. Dad will be so happy to know that I'm finally out of high school. Finally seventeen. Finally being able to drive. Finally able to work.

You're my superhero.