It's a beautiful stalk ♥

2011-04-27T00:20:00.012+08:00

It's been a really long time. A really very long time. Ha............

I've been resting(mentally & physically) for almost 6 months now! And I can feel that my brain is rusting. Oh the same goes for my bone & tendons. That shows I miss Biology lots! Hahaha.

So, I'm left with only 3 weeks to rest before I head back to school!

Gonna start living life in Form 6's world. I was pretty much certain myself to take up arts scream until hours ago. Where I was down with some nerve-wrecking moments! :(

I now fully understand about the true complications in life. Oh well, moving on.

Gonna be somehow busy? for the next few weeks!

Have to start getting myself busy with the stuffs I need for school. Plus the annoying uniform.

Thinking about the new environment with new people around really drowns me lah. Haiyaya

I REALLY MISS FORMER SECONDARY SCHOOL! With my bunch of awesome girlfriends. What a sad & yet proud thing to say.

So I was really struggling for quite a few months now, spiritually. And never doubt God's amazing works in our lives. I was touched by His presence unexpectedly a few days back while watching some videos of Him being nailed on the cross. God is great! :)

ANOTHER THING!

I've finally passed my driving test.

Though I did only during my 3 attempt. Laugh all you want! :/

Having bad bad sore throat & flu now. It feels like I'm sobbing & crying at the same time while getting myself to type these, lol.

And next.........................

Love, always.

It's pretty late now but I wanna do a dedicate-back post to my dearie namely Mindy Chong! I love calling her Mein which is her middle name. WHOOOPS! Just leaked that out, haha. But now I'd love to upgrade her name to.................................... Meinny! Which sounds pretty much like a baby trying to pronouce Minnie. How adorable! :P

Well this girl here is currently a few hundreds km away from me studying her ass off for her upcoming tests and working her abs off for her scary assignments which I'd really love to help her if she was here with me! Time to buck up & learn some real stuffs now my dear! Although days might be hard over there, always remember I'm here giving you support, LITERALLY! though it's may be just plain moral support. But it's the thought that counts right? :)

Be strong! I'm so proud of you ever since you've entered college because I can see lots of changes in you which I'm proud of! A strong girl deserves a kiss from me, HE HE HE (evil laughs) Muah muah muah! :p

Try not to get so pressurized, TRY GIRL! Am gonna try doing so too because I'm nowhere better since I'm entering Form 6 sometime soon! :( So we shall really stand firm and work hard!

Am waiting for you to be back okays!!! We shall talk till we drop when we meet! Because I'm MISSING you like sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much! Wished we are still by each other's side, holding hands & taking a long stroll along the beach..... HAHAHA! Outrageous huh? :P But truthfully, I wished we are still seeing each other daily! Eating good food in the canteen(nasi ayam with soup, FRIED WAN TON!!!! KEROPOK!!!!!! AND THE PINK SAGO KUIH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)! Lepaking at the school toilet STATION! Walking to the small squeezzzeee koperasi! We shall really do that again when we go back to school someday alright? We need to REVIVE those memories! :D

Miss you Meinny! Take care and please be fatter when I see you in June, HEHEHE! Big big hugs just for you!

And you know what I am gonna say next in a sweeter version! ;)

WO AI NI! (love shape)

2011-01-31T22:48:00.003+08:00

I feel so disappointed about the way I update my blog. My dearest Mindy is far too awesome! Visit hers instead. Here's it! > CLICK!

I love you, SILLY SHEEP!

Sleep early, we're flying off to London tomorrow!

♥♥♥

2011-01-29T20:18:00.006+08:00

Been really very lazy ever since I came home from the vacation!

I miss all my dear friends. I wish I was 17 once again. :(

Been not doing much as well, basically rotting & rusting at home! But am totally glad that CNY is just days away! Can't wait for it! :D Can't wait to spend time with family members. This excitement kills! Been doing much shopping with mami, spending loads on clothes & other outfits. And this is AWESOME!

Anyway, I'm updating this poor blog just for Mindy & Ryn! :)

Went out with both of my dearies a few weeks back. Mindy & Chien Yee. Glad to spend quality time with the both of them! And here they are :

Mindy just can't stop disturbing! :P She loves bullying me & that's her hobby.

Love you still! Heehee.

Second evidence. :D

♥

Meet Chien Yee! This is the only picture of her with her eyes opened! ;)

Obsessed with the flower. Hahaha!

We were about to burst into laughter! ;D Ahahahaha.

Hi sexy ladies!

I'm seriously having some weird thinkings. Or perhaps they are just facts that I can't accept.

That is I AM SERIOUSLY FAT & INFLATING.

I just can't stop eating and what's worse is that I haven't been working out? No output, but lots of input. And CNY is just around the corner! What are we gonna do is that...................... WE'RE GONNA EAT EAT EAT & EAT.

I bet I'll gain 50 pounds(at least) before I get to take my SPM results.

Sigh.

Just to let you guys know.

MINDY CHONG CUTE CUTE is having a WILD WILD time in KL! She can't stop having fun & spying for hot hunks. She's so gonna get it when she sees me! And how daring of her to ask me to get her BR when she didn't behave herself! Tsk tsk tsk. :P Nevermind. I love her too much you see.

Till then.

2011-01-27T23:49:00.001+08:00

DAD.

2011-01-13T00:21:00.007+08:00

And so......................... I've decided to update a little in the space. Since I've so much time to kill.

In case you guys don't know, SPM is over! Hahaha. Okay, you might be just guessing that I've gone mad. How can anyone not know? Yes, I'm nuts.

We had our prom night! And our A/W/E/S/O/M/E trip together! Seriously. It was the bomb of the year other than SPM. I miss every single one of them already! Anyway, we headed to Penang on the 1st night. Sat with my klazeeee Mindy. To be honest, it was like a dreadful night. We didn't sleep yet feeling so tired. Oh meow. We had a fun time in Tambun with all the water rides! And our best best times in Cameron & especially Genting. WOOHOO! Nothing but fun. To the extent I fell sick. Okay, the sad part is when we landed at Malacca. It was time to bid farewell. :'( If I were to elaborate every cuckoo things we've done, it would take zillion years to do so. Shall really let the pictures to take over though I didn't upload many but a few!

I'm happy that so many of us got closer with one another after this particular trip. Okay, maybe it's just us & the boys. Laugh out loud. Anyhow, I still love the girls! Many have already left JB to further studies and some are still have their hard time in NS. I just can't wait for everyone to be back and gather once again! In other words, I miss you ALL!

Be back soon.

I hope.

I just didn't seem to really utter something I wanna. Wonder what it is.

Toodles! :D

Another thing, do you see me inflating? I need to stop this. I need to. FOODS ARE DRIVING ME NUTS! :D

xxx

2011-01-01T23:39:00.003+08:00

Something is wrong with my blog.

But just to let the girl who has just left for KL know, MINDY CHONG!!!!!! I miss you, already. And don't worry, I'll keep this blog alive just for you. :)

Back for more updates!

And hey, HAPPY NEW YEAR! :D

It's 2011!

2010-12-10T23:30:00.016+08:00

It feels so good reading Mindy's blog post, heeheehee! :) I feel so proud of her. FINALLY, she feels the love she has for 5 SC 1. And, I'm inspired to write one for my class as well. I shall leave it until all related events are over. Mein! :'( Laugh out loud.

Anyway, I did my shopping today with my mommy & sister. Found one, finally. BUT it looks so common & I don't quite like it... I mean I do. Just that it's a little bit too "everywhere"? Okay, no use explaining. You'll understand when we meet on the 14th! YAY. :D I can't wait to see all the beautiful boys & handsome girls!

So, we spent quality time with one another in the car today. We talkedddddddd & laughed. We kind of got ourselves into the topic of what I'm gonna do after this. Basically, mom & sis hope that I'll get myself settled down with an A-Level course first. They're considering of sending me to overseas though. That is if I do really well in the A-Levels that I'll be taking. Shall never forget that all is in God's hands. I'm nobody to make any decisions.

It's been 2 months odd since dad left. I asked myself over & over again whether am I actually responsible for everything? I just thought that it's my fault. I wish, I really do wish that I was a better daughter. He's a real joker. He just can't stop making me laugh and maybe that's why nowadays I love seeing my friends laugh as well. Perhaps it's still new for me. In everything I do, there's just flashbacks about him. What really makes me hanging on is that God said that it's just a temporary separation. I am not strong or whatever people says about me but my sister said to me "You're a big girl now". It's not the time for mom to take care of me. It's the other way round. Should I ever wail & mourn in front of my mom? I can't afford to make regretful decisions anymore. Dad will be so happy to know that I'm finally out of high school. Finally seventeen. Finally being able to drive. Finally able to work.

You're my superhero.

2010-12-09T00:35:00.000+08:00

SPM is overrrrrrrrrrrr! Over! :)
I don't know whether to laugh or cry? It's been really amazing. Time flies like zooooooooooom - HIGH SCHOOL HAS ENDED. To me, high school has been pretty torturing. Not revealing the reason. But of course, I'll definitely miss Tebrau & my friends there. I just love being crazy in school. I'm no crazy person though. I just get hyped up whenever I'm with my friends. Feeling restless & tired now. Gonna give a proper update the next round! Just gonna enjoy my holidays to the max now. More events are up next!

It was my birthday of the 23th last month, which is also on the 1st day of SPM. Well, I'm so not gonna forget that particular day. Hahaha!

Hey, I'm finally 17! :D
xoxo

2010-10-03T22:57:00.017+08:00

Today has been a goooooood day! :)

Celebrated baby Shi Ern's 8th birthday. A belated one though. Promised her to get her an ATM machine thing the last time she spotted it. Sadly, another thing caught her eyes. Got her a Play-Doh set from Toys R Us instead. Bought her a pillow(NO IDEA WHY!?) & lunch at Vivo. All her awesome ideas. Mami shopped her part as well. Grandma too!

Went to hunt for my prom dress as well. Mami asked me to get it today but i wanna make sure i didn't miss any other better ones. Also, wanna get it together with Ryn. Hopefully? :)

This little brat here. She never stops kissing/slapping my arse i tell you.
She's definitely a pain in the ass too. STILL, i love her despite she shakes and shakes and shakes in the crowd using Teenage Dream & Sorry Sorry as the background music.
This's what you call true love aah. :)

Time to get myself back to work. SPM in another 50 days! LET'S KICK ASS.
AND, i'm doing fine now so no worries dudes & babes!
ALL GOOD.

♥

2010-09-19T21:28:00.006+08:00

# Many overdue post are left untouched.

Went out for brunch at Mc'd & pool with a bunch of aliens yesterday. My brother, ZKang, Raymond & Jeremy.
So much fun to that extent i'd almost forgotten that school's near. Pool in the noon and resumed at night. :)

Oh yes, girls without eyeliners are beautiful.

Real upset, angry, heartbroken and sad. Just too terrible.
Hey, no such thing has ever happened in my life. Seriously. I felt like something piercing into my heart. I cried because i felt like my heart was literally broken. I mean it hurts! No, you're not listening to any dramatic stories.

Anyways, this 2 weeks have been crazy for me. I'm getting more sceptical about people now. Goodness sake, why such tragedy must happen only today? It breaks me so damn hard and i've school tomorrow. There's never a smile on me and i totally HATE that. Now, i understand it's actually pretty hard to deal with your own feelings. I've tons of friends asking me stuffs and to comfort them all. Now that i've woke up, i realized i'm more like bullshitting all along. I crapped about the facts of life yet i don't practise them. Guilty. I'm no longer the silly bubbly happy-go-lucky girl that makes my parents happy. Instead, i threw my negative feelings on them with my moody faces.

I always and forever thought i'm over it. Is it just me or you?
Since i've got a firm answer from you, i guess there's not much to crack my brain about. Anymore.
I should have known this long ago. Fairy tales don't end like what we want them to be. It's so hard. Still feeling pissed right now. I mean, i just don't want it that way! That's why, Emily and I were never wrong. BOYS ARE LIKE THAT. She'll love this a million times if she sees this. Also, tears shed no longer mean anything now. I thought i've ran out of them, seems like there are still plenty. You can me crybaby or whatever you want. But for you, the reason for me crying is still the same. I wonder haven't i get bored of it? Almost 3 years now, almost. If you dare to say it's because of hurting me, the beginning should be known as a mistake already.

Life's tiring. By God's grace, i'm still hanging in there.
I'm starting to learn not to plan too much in life or have fantasies about them. Because you'll never know if tomorrow arrives. Today itself has so much problems. What more do you expect? I need back the peace and joy from God.

2 months left for me to leave high school! I can't wait to do that maaaan! Gonna work double hard for SPM because i have had my fun in this 2 weeks. All the best to all fifth formers! :) Trying hard to stop slacking and thinking about you man. Why are you all over my head?

I can't wait to get my license!
XOXO

2010-09-16T22:30:00.006+08:00

HI BABES.

It's been a long since I updated anything. So, here's a few to make up for my disappearance!

Holidays were superb! Am lovin' them. No kidding! I just don't get it when people complain about the boredom of having holidays, really. :( Been feeling pretty restless as well. Got my time all mixed up. Been real active at night and drowsy in the morning. I bet you know how that feels like.

Dad's showing improvement. And I got to tell you this, GOD WORKS MIRACLE.
Always.
Through all these devastated circumstances, we are just bound to experience more of His presence. This is just so true.
And I'm perfectly fine now. :)
I know those who care.

So, holidays last for 2 weeks and you've no idea how much I've always yearned for that!
*SCREAMS*

Xizhe's back.
Got to meet up for less than 30 minutes.
@(&$*(^%&*&!#^
And now, we've to wait till December.
How cool is that?

I'm SATISFIED. Totally! :D
I'm catching up with all the awesome shows that I've been missing out!
FRINGE! MENTALIST! CSI (Trilogy's awesome! You got to go watch!)! GLEE! FLASH FORWARD (On 8TV)! SHARK! ETC ETC.
I feel so...................................... COMPLETE! :D

My babe, Denise came over the other day! And she candid shot me.
Heart you deep deep.
Dorothy, Nicole, Steph & Sue Ann came too.
Can barely remember who else.

Been real lazy nowadays. I don't know how, I don't know why.
SPM is just 2 months away & I'm behaving as if I'm a free kid now.
Hopefully miracle will just fall upon me by God's grace. Hahaha, that'll wake me up a little at least.

Also, I've been missing our on class outings. But that doesn't matter much.
I shall not reveal too much first. :)
Gonna share another time!

How crappy.
I just did not manage to crap like my usual self.
You know what, I used to blog more than once daily. Mark the word USED TO.
I wish I was still the same. Hey, the feeling of it is so shiok you know. :D You write, you crap and write every single shit you wanna. I just can't do it like now. Oooh, I hope it's not a sign of getting older. :)

Aaaaaah, I seriously got to stop now.
I just want days at school to be more fun, less dreadful and just smooth.

Ooh, by the way!
I just realized that PMS is such a killer. I'm not kidding.
It took over my usual self.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
God loves you!

2010-09-07T22:41:00.003+08:00

Hi.
I'm still here.

Bye.

2010-07-31T23:44:00.006+08:00

The MOE talk was just fine.

Walked from Bugis to Orchard.
Kidding.
I'm really tired.
Very.
Extremely.
Crazily.
Tired.
What was worse? - A nonsensical bus driver lectured me in front of everybody.
Stoned.
Subway-ed after billion years.
Legs are aching.
Haven't started studying.
Trials.
Trials.
Trials.
Give me a break.

2010-07-29T17:52:00.002+08:00

Tap tap tap tap tap.
Tap tap tap tap tap.

What's that?

My sister tapping her ugleh iPhone.
Boooo!

:(

2010-07-25T00:07:00.014+08:00

KAN WAI LING ♥ 24/07/87

It's my dear sissy's 23th birthday today! Despite the fact that she's not home, i still manage to reach her & wish her :) I hope she'll see this? I bet she will.

Though we've been seeing each other lesser now (I've been repeating this for the 24872th time now) , you know you love me still. But you ought to know that i love you more & real much. Having a sister like you makes me feel complete :)

That's it. I'm saving for more, in the very letter i'm giving her :)

Back to business!
Godbro is home!
Xizhe is back in the town yo!
:D
Same old thing.
McD, TC, movies, church, etc :)

We managed to catch Eclipse by the way, wheee!
Epic cool.
I mean, so much better compared to New Moon, no?
Team Jacob / Team Edward?
Edward for sureeeee baby!
:)

Thank you so much.
Woo. I'm evil, RAWR!

This is yummy :)
Trust me for once?

I got to run!
I feel so sorry & pathetic for myself.
Serious case. No fooling around anymore. Practise self-control!
Trials in 23 days?

Tell you more when i get back!
Goodbyeeeeee facebook and everything i hate!

Just give my best shot.
xoxo

2010-07-23T12:29:00.004+08:00

Now, you tell me why.

2010-07-18T21:47:00.003+08:00

Hi hi hi sayang-s!

Just a brief update!
I've got selected to join NS. Hopefully, it's the 1st batch & that my mom would just take things easy.
Anyways!
My week has been pretty fruitful now & this will remain, i know :)
Back from my trip to Inti UC last night with my bunch of awesome pals & teacher!
This is like. Awesomeness overload.
Really. I've never expected this trip to be like this splendid! Hwee :D
To be serious. We've build a greater bond among ourselves and amazingly, that includes our form teacher! Aww. Sweet, no?

What's sweeter was that i get to meet up with my awesome cousin! (: My best cuz ever. She was there waiting for me even before i got down the bus! Waited, waited & waited for me & drove me around Nilai to show me around with her boyf'. She came to look for me the next day the same, that's when i'm about the leave for JB (: & she got me a pack of sweets from Famous Amos & a bear quoted with I Love You! I love you too cuz! Wait, i managed to say hi to my godbrother & Zhen Kang as well. We were like stoning there. LOL. Anyways, it's Zhen Kang's 18th today! Happy birthday boy. You know something? Being 18 doesn't give you the rights to get sick & bully PuiLing! :P

That's about it now.
Tell ya more in detail about the trip the next time! With pictures :)

Ooh yeah Test 2 ended few days back! Sad case. Trials is like (?) less than a month's time.
Woo. Good night, lovelies!
Xxx

2010-07-02T22:55:00.005+08:00

I miss you both much!

Hey, trials are just weeks away and i'm pretty much stuck right now. Shall get started sometime soon! And first, let me tell you i'm much in love with this very picture :) & Am currently in the boys whatever friends forever mode. I'm sooooo glad that things are changing for the better & going well. Somehow i know this is temporary, before the other disasters come ; i'd better appreciate these moments now. Life's too brief for you to think about tomorrow as everyday has its own problems. I sincerely thank God for bringing me through all these adversities. Without Him, nothing is significant.

It's not easy.

You know?

There was a time where i kept complaining why does time passes this slow? And now, it's just zoooom- another month has passed. Time flies the same even when i dread going school you see. As you're getting older, let me say this- You're going after time, not the other way round. 24 hours is just too short!

I'm been eating like siao today! Indulged in binge-eating. Hahaha ;D

Going to the dentist's tomorrow with my papa & brudda! This makes my legs go jelly. You know what, i've always think that the doctor is some kinda surgical maniac. How crazy! With those tools around.

That's it for now.
Again, i really miss you both.

:)

2010-06-27T16:02:00.011+08:00

My pictures are going to rot anytime soon so before they do, here's a few.

So this was yesterday, a secretive(CRAP LA) farewell outing for Raymond! Featuring(BOO LA) me, my brother & Jeremy K.

Sometimes heels don't help.

Constipated look.

Purple.

I tell you (HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHA)
It's been ages since i literally laughed my ass off.
Because there was JKok.
:)
Brother & I enjoyed.
I mean i'm sure 4 of us did.

Next.

Remember?
The sleepover at Vshl's place + church ;

This was crazy ;)

And.

The class BBQ at the poolside.
My phone's death anniversary.

Till then.

All the best there, Almond Lemon :)
I shall see you soon. Thank you to Weiwan too, for the lunch&spending so much time talking to me. I love you.

2010-06-18T14:56:00.004+08:00

If you're looking at this, she's my tablemate.

I don't know what's with me. Well, I've been doing busy for this hols but then everything seems to be in a mess.
I remember there's this saying, " It's all in the mind! "

First week of hols was all about additional classes at school, tuition-s. Oh wait, plus the sleepover at Vishelle's place. That girl slept the whole day and left me alone- stoning. But i'm sure we had fun baking! Went to Wen Jiuan's wedding together as well.

Went out and did quite a bit of stuffs. But this project thing just ruined the joy y'know? I'm still not done with my English & Add'm shit. And my phone passed away, got drowned all. Ah i don't wanna mention about it. My dear messages are gone for good.
Seriously.
What more my phone has problem uploading pictures.

Wait, am not at Teenz Camp too.
Today was supposed to be a Karyn-PL's day but i postponed it again. Again, again & again. Exploding. I'm gonna skin myself alive the next time this happens. Mom......

After this, it's time to just work our asses off. And oh, my results were just disappointing.
What's in my brain for goodness sake? Trials are just too near. We all see it.

Take me away?

" Optimism boosts your immune system "

2010-06-04T16:06:00.003+08:00

Just because not much attention was given.
And eventually, things changed.

Hey! I'm jumping like cuckoo woman here. The dreadful exams are FINALLY over and i can have my beauty sleep back. Love.
It's been awhile now and my first attempt was a success (that i manage not too go online for a month now) :) And i don't really find myself getting too attached to the computer afterall.
I've got much to tell but it's not time yet.

BECAUSE!

I wanna spend time on L4D now. Scary i know! :D

SO.
Bye for now :)

2010-05-08T22:40:00.004+08:00

First of all,
A very Happy Birthday to my very own mommy & Happy Mummy's Day to all wonderful moms out there!

I love you, mom. I wouldn't crap much because no words can describe how awesome our moms can be. Don't you agree? :)

Secondly, I am very glad that I have not been going online for a week. It's a huge accomplishment you know. And the best thing, I don't feel addicted towards the net any longer. In fact, i do not have the urge to go check out stuffs. I mean stuffs that don't benefit me. I hope this will remains :) Going online makes me feel sad, why ah! I don't exactly know why. Hahaha.

Thirdly, this week was crazy. My godbrother is back from Nilai and I'm crazily happy that we get to catch up after being so far apart as both of us were so busy. Hung out for lunches, dinners, movie, games, church services and all. Things are always better when he's back.

But things aren't right now.
Sometimes pressure isn't helping me to buck up or anything in fact, they make me go insane.
Eh no, something is wrong with me. I realised I've been saying things are bad things are bad things are bad in all the posts i posted. Hahaha! I'm just negative.
But then again, thank God for my family and godbrother. Hahaha. I'm really thankful. And also, a few friends.

I personally think that not phases are worth going through. I don't think that i'll get to learn everything and anything through THEM. Oh God, why.

Everything changes. Like how i used to love blogging and just crap all i can. Karyn and i don't really blog much now! Hahaha.

Guess what! Midyear's next. Trying to get myself ready for the war yo!

And hey, Ironman 2 is awesome! You gotta go watch like i did. Ahhhha! Toodles for now! :)

2010-04-24T18:44:00.007+08:00

Most of the times, i find myself not being natural while dealing conversations with friends.
Doing this makes me feel stressful & tired.
Somehow, this helps me to draw closer to God because i know i need His help :)

This week has been the best & the worst week.

It was brother's birthday yesterday. Feeling real down but at least, i have my sweet family members to stand by me & an awesome godbrother who was there for me! And also, supportive friends who were there.

And yep, this's the sweetest card ever. Happy 18th birthday, kor! :)

Went to Arashi & La Pasta.

Chocolates makes me smile :) Eh no, i'm not smiling.

I think i've been stressing myself for no reason. How do i put this? It's like, it SHOULD NOT be something that i have to torture myself with. But most of the times, i just can't help it.

But i've to thank my godbrother for everything. Xizhe rocks!

I felt much relieved after talking last night. Yay! He's coming back real soon! :D Can't wait! We must meeet up even if it's during my midyear.
We do actually grow up to be a stronger person each time after facing certain difficulties.
If it wasn't for this, we wouldn't be like this. So yeah. I'm trying to look at another angle while facing these. I believe i'll get to learn something from this. Even at times like i got grounded and got to stay in the room to study study and study the hell out of my brain, i still thank my parents for that. Sometimes, i just couldn't tolarate this. But at the end, the hardwork & efforts i contribute will be paid off by just sacrificing a lil' of the fun time. Even times like we think that we can't be strong, we must still be! How do we pull through otherwise?

By remembering that i still have my awesome God, family members, godbrother & a few good friends with me, every circumstances i face seem to be lighter! Regardless of how others treat me, they're still there. Being there no matter what. How good is our God :) I love you all. Forgive me for not knowing that i do actually have a really nice friend, namely Samantha Wong.

2010-04-17T23:11:00.002+08:00

It's been awhile.

Hello!

It's been 2 weeks. Heg heg heg :D
So, updates for today!

Went to Vishelle's place to fetch her & headed to Jusco. Had Black Canyon for lunch & chit-chatted quite a bit.
Took cab to church & was late.
It was my first time to church after the torturous 8 months. Angeline! We can do it :)
Rushed for lunch with my family members & Shi Ern.
And saw Denise, Eunice, Heather, Esther & Zoe before that.
How i missed'em.
Get to talk to Stella for a few minutes on the phone :(

Look at this.
( Don't mind me, my cacat-ed face )
Vish & I bought this from a girl who was unable to speak for charity or something for RM 6 each.
Surprisingly, a bible verse was written on it.

So.........................
I'm undecided right now whether to sign up for Teenz Camp this year.
Well, I missed last year's.
I've got no idea what to do.

OH YEAP! I saw LAI JUN YI today :)

Wait! I realised something that is my facebook page has been pretty active recently.
Don't know why don't know why.
And oh, i guess i'm gonna get grounded anytime soon.
Mom & dad gave me hints that they're NOT letting me to use the net any longer.
Crucial point now.
;(
They're saying i'm not working hard not this not that. But definitely not that case. It's always better when i don't fake it out. Right? Like sneaking out of the room & go online in the middle of the night.
I do my own revision constantly.
I just want you both to trust me.
That hard?

Last night was all hype up by talking to Vicky like crazy. Hahaha.
I don't know why i kept pressing the exclaimation mark :P
Remember our June plan okay!
Set set set :)

A better news!
I'm starting to love school.
I missed one day of school last week. Fuh! My first time this year :)
Was sick sick sick all over & my sexy voice pop-ed up.
I'm starting to love water as well.

Guys, drink plenty of water alright! :D
El Nino kills.

2010-04-04T16:16:00.003+08:00

Happy Easter Day all! :)

I've got so much to say but apparently, me this silly pumpkin injured my fingers. My 3 fingers in the middle. Got squashed by the car door. My tears were like spraying, serious case. How can i not know when i fingers are there? Nevermind, still alive and kicking! :)

My skin is better now, i suppose. Peel peel peel! :D

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I spent like.... 5 hours completing Evy's farewell gift.
I've got no idea if i can go over to Changi Airport next Wednesday! :(
'Cause my parents have not given me the nod.
I need to go.
Sigh.

Shall post up some pictures about the gift soon.
x

2010-03-28T16:46:00.008+08:00

I'm in the crazy mode today!
BECAUSE, after soooooo long - which is really very long like really. LONG. okay, you know long? I finally get to go to a beach! (idon'tcarewhateverbeachitis) :D well my parents don't like us(siblings) to be there because.... dangerous, dirty & stuffs. Unless it's east coast. Get the idea? Hahaha!

Mom, dad & grandma didn't join us cause they weren't feeling okay about it. Hehehe :)
Mhm, sissy is away from home as usual.

I've got fat short lil' toes.
In other words, WEIRD toes.

We've tried so many types of jumps y'know.
I just can't do the star jump part. Ah well.

Here's mine.
The one & only shot that succeeded :D

Thank God for the sky :) Random i know!

I guess this week has been pretty fruitful. I don't know what makes me say this but guess what! I woke up crazy early every single day this week so yeah.. Unlike those days where i crawled out of my bed around 12pm (except school days) > :)

Me : Eh mi! Must go Desaru tomorrow k! I promise you if you let me there, i'll study hard after getting my inspiration there and will revise as much as i could.

Mom : Okay okay. But these days you're not even working hard.

Me : Yeah, that's why i'm telling i will work hard after going. (showing the urgh face)

Mom : AH, okay.

I guess i got to do what i promised.
Got to kick asses!
Taaaaaaa!

2010-03-27T15:42:00.004+08:00

This week was good. (trying to sound optimistic)
Hahaha, well you know those typical days are just bad as in, you know- BAD.
But i've got to admit this, i laugh like a mad cow at school.
My friends hate this but me, me love :)

So, today is just like any other Saturdays but i woke up early to accompany my brother to school, to get his cert for having 1 of the best results in his SPM examination. I love you, proud of ya! Saw Joshua, Rachel, Qi Yao, Justin, Xue Wen, Melissa&Mellisa & etc. Karyn was there too! Feeling great to see her though we didn't get to catch up :)

I'm taking off this wig, NOT.

My birthday card from Mindy. Last year's.
Looking forward to my 17th :)

And yes, grandma came to stay with us for quite a few months now & it was her 72th birthday last week. No pictures, but the cake. Sad case :(

Brutha & Sista

This is also what my brother wrote.
Click to enlarge.
His cuckooness is in the gene :D

Me, last year at Sg'p.

I'm feeling pretty much tired of being nice these days.
Time for wildness?

I miss my this friend, Stephanie very much :)
Blog bout her anytime soon!

2010-03-21T16:37:00.005+08:00

I went through the bible and what strikes my mind was : i have not been having proper devotion period these days.
I felt as if many unsolved stuffs now are because i've not seek God all these while.
Not exactly that, but i'm just not being consistent.
But, i'm glad that He spoke to me.
:)
God never forsake me & as always, he keeps His promises.

Feeling all wrong right now. Holidays are officially over. Hectic days are coming back but i must bear in mind that He's there to guide me, throughout my life.

I don't have to look things that deep. Why should i?
Life shouldn't be this.
Decided to be on a hiatus now.
I need to get well spiritually.

2010-03-18T20:49:00.011+08:00

At 4, i started going to my very first nursery school with other tots.
At 7, i started my primary education with all wonderful kiddos.
At 12, i took my major & scored pretty well.
At 13, i enter SMK Sri Tebrau with a whole new environment & got to know my godbrother.
At 14, i rebelled & got to know friend. A very important person to me ; now & always.
At 15, i had my major & had my very first phone.
At 16, i entered science stream & had my best-worst year ever but i'd my sweet 16.

AT 17, which is right now - things are bound to happen & i hope all will turn well. Usually, i'd think that i've had an ugly past. I don't know how and i don't know why. I just know that, that was all my very own decision.

If you noticed hard - at 16, that was my best and worst year. I guess that the worst part was because i did huge mistakes. That is also why people usually have their sweet 16 like i did :) I'm missing my 16th birthday randomly now, though it wasn't any of the epic ones. I agree that, that was the most memorable one.

AT 14 - That person matters to me alot. IU Day. Memorable. I just have no idea how to put it into words. In any ways, he is just very important.

###
I'm almost done with my folio! *smile smile smile* :) > :) > :)
And i'm feeling sad, cause i think i've wasted my holidays just like that.
But of course, exclude that day (Tuesday).

I hope he's having fun in his camp right now & will get to learn something from it.
And, pray that his application for Poly will succeed.
♥

2010-03-17T19:47:00.006+08:00

If i were to use the word "give up", it doesn't seems to apply on me.
I don't exactly know what to do because at this moment, i can't solve this problem alone.
I need you God.
Please help me to overcome all these barriers for making me to feel this way.

When i get to see him, i feel all messed up.
My feelings go all ways, i don't feel good.
When i don't get to see him, you know, the feelings when you yearn to see someone so badly?
Wanting to know how is he doing and all.
But what about if the person is opposing you in everything you do?
I wanted to tell him that i hate him yesterday.
Because i'm lost for words.
I don't know what can i do to describe him anymore.
Maybe it's a good thing for him, but definitely a no for me.

God, you need to help me to persevere till the very end.

Realized something odd?
Yep, i've changed my blogskin. Something was wrong with the font from my previous blogskin.
And if you're a constant reader, you'd know this is the one i used before my previous's.
Anyway, i removed the chatbox. And dear friends, if you feel like commenting, sorry that i've to trouble you guys.
Please do comment below each posts i made.
Thank you.

:)

I need a getaway.

2010-03-16T22:52:00.024+08:00

I can still remember what i promised myself on the last day of 2009.
I didn't actually get to fulfill most of them.

That's what i realized from today's outing.
I can't do what he could do.
I can't seem to solve this problem at all.
I thought i am over it.

So, where i went today was - Tiara Club, Pelangi Leisure Mall and Living Room.

Joshua (the main star), Brother, ZhenKang, Raymond and I had our badminton session at Tiara Club. I love sweating with the right attire. Well, it was good that we spent our time with this useful activity. Next, we headed to the mall for pool. I guess the guys enjoy more than i do :) Our last station was Living Room. It's been a while since i had my meal there. So, it was all wonderful for today.

The weird thing was, it doesn't seem to be a farewell outing. Haha. Because we're hanging out again till Joshua officially leaves. For your info - he's not leaving so soon but anytime soon. It's a yay then!

# Joshua

2010-03-15T16:49:00.012+08:00

Do you know what day is it today? Monday.
Monday has a hidden meaning #Monday blues!
Woke up at 7am and got ready for Chemistry & Physic tuition.
Started at 9am till 1pm, consecutively.
I was yawning all over & felt like i'm almost dead :)

My table! Messy-ness. I think that pile of books can cover up the view of the table itself.
Seriously.
Anyway, this might be an inspiration for me to finish up my work.
Well, i did but not all.
My moral folio! I think that is a challenge for me. I don't even know what to write.
I did scrabble some stuffs in it though :)

#On the way back from tuition

Tomorrow shall be a blast.
Going for badminton with Joshua, Brother & ZhenKang.
Well, it's actually a farewell outing for Joshua who is leaving to Nottingham soon.
This guy.
I've got so much to thank him for but i shall save the post for the next slot when he officially leaves.
Anyway, it's been 3 months since the four of us went out.
It is time to, no? :)
All the best another Joshua who's going to Nilai this Wednesday! Joshua Foo, see you anytime soon :)

Friggin' exhausted right now. Fatigue.
I need a short nap right now & enjoy my holidays by doing my homework :)
Outing-s as well.
Wish me luck!

2010-03-14T00:06:00.015+08:00

dude.
apparently i'm having this jusco-phobia syndrome going on.
well, i guess JB can't have any better place for me to shop, hahaha.
CS is way too far & parents aren't that agreeable for me to walk in that place cause they don't find it safe?
AND i think it's more comfy for me to shop/chill in TC than CS.
so yeah, that is why.

probably that is also why PUILING has officially gone cuckoo!

HI :D

& so, i went to watch Alice In Wonderland with my darling brother today!
i think it wasn't THAT fascinating like what i expected.
the best part was The Cat, Chess :)
cuteness overload!
the scary part? The Red Queen.

by the way!
my brother hates this cake.

WAIT.

I SHALL LET YOU HAVE SWEET DREAMS.
HERE.

RAWRRRRRRR :D

TAAA!

2010-03-12T22:24:00.009+08:00

Okay now. I can finally catch my breath and breathe well and blog and post random pictures and a hi for you guys! :)

First of all, my week has been pretty hectic as tests has just passed not too long ago. And guess what!

Happy Holidays!

This is the very day that i've been looking forward for the rest of my life, right. Hahaha. Well, teachers has done their job very well by giving us 28390 mil of work to do. Nicey!

Anyway, yesterday was the judgement day for '09 SPM students.
I was feeling jelly all over though it's like none of my concern that kinda thing. How funny.
My brother did very well and the same goes for my godbrother. I'm proud of'em! :)
It was all nice to see my long-lost dear friends (whatever you call that) again.
And yes, ZhenKang! I'm glad for him too. His result were satisfying i suppose, though i did not have the privilege to have a look at his slip. Nv'mind nv'mind.
Raymond! Happy for him. He did much better than what i expected.
Hope the both of'em will get into which ever college they've applied for.
Some of my friends are feeling low, too low & i'm lost for words.
I did whatever i could to encourage'em.
Prayer is vital.

Now back to myself. Feeling anxious for my major! Not to mention NS thingy.

And my godbrother went back to Nilai yesterday! Boo-hoo.
He's having his don't know what Chemistry test etc.
Do well do well do wellll :)
And again! I'm so proud of his results.
Really!

PuiPuiPuiLing studied for her first test! Too bored to the extent I HAD TO CAMWHORE BIT WHILE.

I wanna catch Alive In Wonderland in 3D! I wonder if i could go over to Sg'p this weekend with my friends to watch. I'm sure it'll be superb!

Badminton, anyone? Soon.

The most essential thing to do during this holiday is to REVISE! You never know how badly i did in my test. Seriously, i thought i lost my brain and soul. But i'm back! This is a tough year and i've got to do whatever i could to just get outta that lazy mode.

Too much of craps kill.
Tata, period!

:)

2010-03-07T00:48:00.011+08:00

showered, feeling fresh.
SUBWAY EAT FRESH.
aww, i miss SUBWAY! nyum nyum! :(
nevermind, i'm going SG in another 2 weeks :D

bybyby th'way, i'm back from jusco yo! like again, me know \m/
it's 0059am now & yet i'm not sleeping yet! cause,
HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY JOYCE DEAR!

anyway, i've got my haircut today ;)
bother if you notice nothing! shall post up a picture of my fringe anytime soon.
i miss my long hair though.
so much!

sissy & brutha ♥

♥

i think i shouldn't expect too much from life where i expect everything in return when actually it is not going to happen.

soul-search.
that's something vital to me.
i need to practise to calm and chill.

i miss you, Denise!

guess what! my brother almost got into an accident just now. sissy & i were like " AHHHHHHH ". but thank God, close shave.

today was a fairytale :)
& i hate it when i don't have a title.

2010-03-04T21:33:00.007+08:00

i've been going through something painful yet meaningful & i want this to be something memorable to look back in the future. friends issues, studies and all are just common barriers we face. what if that issue just crawls up to your head & haunts you & drowns you day and night? it's imaginable you see.

i thought i'm good enough to deal with the people around me. all sorts of people. friends are starting to show their real self after these years & yeap, there's nothing you can do about it, no? but i'm glad that i'm starting to know where i should start adapting.

i love me. i want to appreciate me, myself & i won't let myself to get hurt that easily just because of those small lil' things other people do. else i bet i wouldn't live up to 80 because the real world is just like that. that's also why people call life a bitch. i love daddy and mommy! thank youuuuuuuuu heaps!

hell yeah! test 1 is over. this test killed me and was dreading it :( oh well. i've got too many things to get them done, now!

1# my dear hair, what kind of shape do you want to be like?
2# i need to get a new wallet.
3# smack! badminton time.
4# cleaning spreeeeeeeeee.
5# hangout-s!
6#
7#
8#
the list goes on........ and yeap! SPM results on the 11th. i can't wait to see my friends! miss them a whole lot.

comfort zone! i need you right now :)

2010-02-21T21:24:00.009+08:00

My V-Day's gift :)

Joyce & Puiling
(Joyce is like TALL? I could only reach her shoulders)

I told my this friend that i need to isolate myself from everything else.
Cause anything can lead me to this very scary depressive mood.
We can never think of what life can bring but we just gotta keep rolling.
Roll for the best.
It's always easier said than done, no?

I went through some of the text messages from my phone just now.
I read all the birthday messages i received on my 16th birthday.
Most of my friends would wish me "stay happy, wish that your dreams come true....."
I asked myself have i ever remained happy?
I think, every messages means something to me.
And yes, every word means something to me.
And the best birthday message i've ever received would be this :

Happy 16th birthday! May all your wishes come true.
I know that one of your wishes is (that person's name) will get straight A's for SPM,
and that he will get a girlfriend who is as hot as Megan Fox, right?
That one must come true so wish harder ok? ;)
And be happy always. Don't be so emotional.
By the way, can you see this
\(6_6)/?
( )
This dude is happy that you're one year older already. 1 more year to be able to drive,
2 more to be able to get married, smoke and drink (but don't do it except you can get married if you want to, depends on whether anyone wanna marry you), 5 more years then you can vote.
But for now, STUDY! Work harder for SPM and don't let your master down. Good results, you shall have.... <- trying to talk like Yoda. Makes me wise, haha.
Happy Birthday!

It's 21st of February now.
It's 22nd tomorrow.
And it's also school tomorrow.
I have not get my things done and i've lost my calculator.
*bangs head on the wall*

I miss my sister very very very very the much.
KAN WAI LING BETTER GET HOME SOON!

:)

2010-02-20T22:03:00.026+08:00

My feelings are very uncertain right now.
How i wish i never was a part in his life.
I wasn't in it for any better reason but to create chaos in his past.
That makes him to have an ugly past.

That's what i say but that isn't what i think.
I'm uncertain about everything now you see.
I'm being hard to myself to just leave everything behind and i mean every single thing.
Do you actually think it's possible?
God will pull me through i know.

What else can i do?
Love involves a peculiar unfathomable combination of understanding and misunderstanding.

Chinese New Year was a blast this year (not really) but it was all good to see my lovelies around. Valentine's was good. That was the silliest moment ever having the thought of celebrating with him next year. These are the random pictures ;

Blogger is being such a monster.

( click )

I'm the kind of girl that prefers swing.

2010-02-19T23:24:00.003+08:00

i thought i've moved on.
why am i still holding on?
it has been 2 years to be exact.
i'm over it.
that's what i told myself.
i hate to be regretful.
i'd have moved on if that was sincerely from the bottom of my heart.

i don't wanna get into depressive mode.
if i were given a chance to ask,
would you give me a chance once again?

2010-02-11T18:38:00.002+08:00

BYE BYE BYE!
xoxo

2010-02-11T18:12:00.004+08:00

Everyday can be this torturous. And guess what, i've found out something.

" Get used to what you're not "

True. I wouldn't want to actually do the same things over and over again. This may be the real me but i'd have prefer to expose myself to something new. New adaptation. Okay, sounds better. Anyways, i'm thinking right now whether will i get used to not living with my parents daily starting from next year? If i were to take medicine, i'd consider Russia. If i were to take Law, be it KL. Sometimes, i just couldn't deny how lovely my family can be.

I'm extremely happy! I'm leaving for Ipoh tomorrow, my this lovely hometown. I can't wait, i can't i can't. I can't wait to meet my dearest grandma and lovely aunts and uncles. And yes, my cousins. One coming back from UK, another from Nilai. From Aussie and another one from SG. And the rest. I think, this's a really huge opportunity for everyone to meet again. This chance hardly comes and definitely, it's here only once a year. How nice.

I don't want this awesome holiday to end this fast. Trust me, it'll be gone at a glance. Why? 'Cause you're gonna have fun! :) I hope you guys are looking forward to it. Thank God, homework-s given aren't that bad this year compared to the previous year. Okay, another hidden reason again. After CNY, this Plan J is gonna start for all Form 5 students. Well, i will survive, I KNOW. This plan is gonna kill all students. Why. Why. Why.

Stop complaining.
Hey, i pray that people around me will stop bitching about others. Seriously.
It's been awhile since i prayed about that.
It's getting on my nerves.

Gonna start packing. Have fun you people! :)
I miss alot of humans right now. You you you you you you you you and you.

Happy Valentine's and Happy Chinese New Year!
Hunt for smiles on the faces of the people you love.

2010-02-09T22:15:00.008+08:00

You are forever in my life,
You lead my through the seasons,
Cover me with your hands,
And lead me to your righteousness.

Into Your hands, I commit again,
With all I am, For You Lord,
You hold my world, With the palm of your hands,
And I am Yours forever.

i can't understand myself at times.
it can be something shocking like this when you're so happy and yet you're not the minute later.
i'm trying not to take things for granted, not to missed out those moments where actually i was supposed to be happy.

i can still reminisce the other time where my sister's friend asked me this.
"why were you that emotional the other time?"
guess what.
i didn't even know why.
i can be so forgetful 'bout those stuffs during good times but,
now i've reminded myself of why was i that emotional.
'cause i'm experiencing that myself, AGAIN.
not everyone has this ailment like i do and i've yet to seen anyone with it.

i've been feeling very fragile from the starting week.
so sensitive to the extent that i can be crushed down just by a touch but i've got no idea why.
i thought this shouldn't be happening since my devotion time with God has been pretty constant and more like i've receiving more than usual from Him.

today.
the time just stopped and i kept looking at my watch.
the urge almost killed me.
i was so eager for my mom to pick me up!
i responded to my parents in such a unusual way. the word rude?
oh well, tears and all, and ;
i sensed that my heart broke into pieces when i lost my pencil. how silly?
and my friend teared right in front of me today.
i wouldn't actually ask her directly but somehow i knew what was going on.
ahh this friend of mine has this very similar thing with me.
being over sensitive.
and i do care for her because she's my friend.
i hate seeing my friend in despair kind of situation unless i don't really care for her/him.
apparently, there's one. BUT i must change that point of view.
it's a MUST but it takes time.

i was going through the bible and i saw this.
it's that " be kind to others not because they deserve it but they need it. "
agreed, totally.
i wanna have this change within myself.
i don't wanna treat people following my feelings 'cause me myself i wanna be treated equally.
let God be my role model.

to be honest, recently i've got isolated.
haha, not really.
but you know those people around me, mainly my dear friends.
most of them are attached and i wonder how do they define the attachment to their couples.
this age aren't right for me, right now.
commitments.
how much can i commit?
i can't even save myself from the commitments i made in... let's say in studies.
i'm having my major this year and i've yet to start pushing myself to study.
how bad is that?
i feel that this is a really huge thing.
not something simple.
i don't know about you guys but that's how it goes for me.

and again, the other day i was in a pathetic devastated situation where i had to blow my nose off.
i thought i lost my vision? i cried eyes out.
the bad thing was i didn't know why was that happening.
i missed my godbrother so much but i didn't wanna go disturb him.
he's busy and all.
of course, i miss that zk guy as usual.
i'll not make this as a habit- missing people.

i'm glad, seriously.
i didn't know i can speak everything out of PUILING'S SOUL!!! today.
i shall do this oftenly.
keeping inside your heart is bad and it'll cause internal injuries i quote Kai Shing.
how cute.

anyways, i've been lazing around. i must've been spoiling myself these days.....
i should've done things the other way round.
have faith in God and my own!
a new day tomorrow!
whoops, shouldn't have blog/online on weekdays but just couldn't help it.

goodnight people!
pray hard, sleep tight.
(earn sweet dreams!)

2010-02-07T17:15:00.009+08:00

CNY shopping has come to a FULL STOP and i'm glad about it, glad for all that i'd purchased.
and presents.. i'm officially broke, period.
HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY TO YI SHIAN&LAWRENCE! :D
hope they're gonna have a blast.

my sister and brother aren't at home since morning!
kor kor is at Singapore getting his Omnia II ;
jeh jeh is at somewhere secretive but,
i had a fabulous lunch with my lovely mommy & darling daddy :)
headed to Jusco after lunch.
i've gotten myself some accessories and Xizhe's present.
he's gonna hate it but me likey :)
laugh out loud.

& i saw Yolanda not too long ago.

tea is my love!

this's his gift.
let you have a glance of it

i love mommy very very verily.

i love daddy alot alot alotee.

i've got to start worrying 'bout my undone homework-s.
i should've started feeling that long ago.

i love God.
i love my family.
i love my godbrother.
i love myself.

i can't wait for CNY.
i can't wait for Valentine's.
i can't wait for my godbrother to be back.
i can't wait to see my another large bunch of relatives.
i can't wait to see my cousins.
i can't wait to read the bible.
i can't wait to upload pictures.
i can't wait to meet up with DENISE! i really miss her. do you hear that?
i can't wait to see Siow Zhen Kang.
i can't wait to see my fellow ex-seniors to get their SPM results.
i can't wait to hang out with Karyn and Delarie.
i can't wait to have fun.

and now...................... i can't wait to get my homework-s done! i've got to go.

i'm happy to have this family.
hey, you know what?
i'm in love with my very own SMILE.
see y'll around!

2010-02-05T18:47:00.018+08:00

(posted in advanced)

Sorry for the very ugly (wouldn't taste any nicer) birthday cake! :D
But the balloons look nice! Poke it. Hahaha.

That explains why is it a very special day today.

That's just him, Ong Xi Zhe.
王希哲

Well, A Blessed Birthday to you, kor! :)
I know i've been such a bad girl to the extent that i actually forgot about your birthday last year.
I'm sorry.

But,
I thank God for bringing such a beautiful soul into my life.
And that explains why is it a meaningful day on the 6th of February.

Thank you for being there all the time when my world fell apart and I hope you're celebrating your birthday well in Nilai. It's has been a while since we last met and definitely, i'm rather sad that i couldn't wish you face to face.

Happy Birthday to you,
♪♫♪♫♪♫
Happy Birthday to you,
♪♫♪♫♪♫
Happy Birthday to you,
♪♫♪♫♪♫
Happy Birthday to you!
♪♫♪♫♪♫
(blow candles)

And now, you're legally 18. Please do go clubbing ;) ..... No, i shall take back my words.

I remember there were this time where we quarreled so badly last year? Because of the sweets selling stuff. I was so going to punch you. Hahaha :D And even for the past few years, you were always there to oppose me, with whatever i said. But it was last year, when we became nicer to one another literally. I missed those days where you come to my house to pick me and my brother toMcDonalds to have this "study group" thing where we actually ended up not studying! But fooling ourselves there. It was also last year, where my ultimate problems in life cropped up. But thanks to you and your advise :) Don't forget what you mentioned about a responsibility of a godbrother. And surprisingly, you became one for 4 years you see.

Please do enjoy your big day to the fullest! Have a blast! :D
So, i'll just wish that you'll be happy (24/7! MUST!) and do well in your degree in 2 years time.
And you'll find good friends (you feel comfortable to be with) and be yourself.
You know i am always here.
Happy Birthday!
xxx

2010-01-31T14:36:00.013+08:00

Victor's party :::::::::

the main star : tadaa!

burburburloon(s)

say hi, Jarris! this very cute brat.

Vicky The Batman for the night!
Pretty pretty V.

i'll be :) :) :) if i'm literally taller.
♥

Dickson! Vic! Pui!

Vicky♥ Joanne

credits to V cause she had to start the fire!

Joanne!

my hair is beyond words. nv'mind it's still loved ;)

that is all, period.
i love ALL these unglam pictures of mine.

all the very best to Victor in Aussie!

& i still do read my very dear friends' blog whenever i go online.
& i did thing in my phone ; special friends have♥ beside their names.

Happy February!
xoxo

2010-01-30T17:48:00.010+08:00

i made my day slightly different today!
shopped around out with a few cliques.
it was sorta weird? 'cause in the end, things didn't turn out like what we've plan.
oh well.

fine, i shall "upgrade" my post(s) with more pictures because i find my previous post(s) boring.
okay, not really but extremely wordy (depends on the condition, no?) so that's it.

so,

hello!

I ♥ The Emily

and yes, this was pretty much the main purpose of the outing,

it's been awhile.
cheese :)

Chien Yee & Emily

headed for au' lunch at El Migos!

and this very cheeky woman, Mindy.

& aye, i get to chit-chat a little with my very dear friend, Karyn through msn last night. she's always there and there's no way i can express how much i rely on her. bad times & good ones, memorable. looking forward for a meet up! thank you for being there, ryn! my pillar. i love you :)

& last Thursday, we threw a surprise farewell party for Victor at Kenneth's. it was pretty much fun though it didn't really turn out like what we've expected. i must say that the photos session was the best? add in the food part, hehe! shall post up pictures when Dickson and Joanne upload'em. plus, i'm feeling ecstatic for Vicky! :) moi blisters killed me though.

why is everyone migrating to Aussie? mhm.

anyways, i'm hyper right now because it's Sunday tomorrow!
i shouldn't be.
monday blues are on display.
i love The Sunday Star!

i'm showing you my signature smile before i stop,

indecisive condition makes me tougher sometimes.

2010-01-24T13:12:00.017+08:00

you find people telling you to take things easily, face on the bright side.
i find myself suffocating doing that.
everyone faces different issues daily and no one escapes from it.

i've got no idea how make myself feel better each time disaster-s just fall upon me.
perhaps it's just that i've not found my comfort zone yet.
i'm starting to realized that i rely to much on others.
i find places to hide whenever i'm crushed down.
not anymore.
i used to think that i'm matured enough to know everything and old enough to conquer the world.
but now, i've this thinking that i'm still the small seedling that's still looking out for sunlight and water to continue growing.

don't do stuffs that you feel uncomfortable with,
be yourself.
real friends will accept that part of you and continue to deal your perfectly flawed flaws with you
:)

i'm a gone case 'cause this isn't what i've in mind, usually.

hence, i'll just give my best shot regardless of what that just get into my pathway.
i give myself a new start daily the moment i open my eyes before stepping into school.
this's a phase most TEEN-agers will go through in their lives.
peer pressure? i've that with me.
at times, when it's something i wanna do, the condition is like a no-way situation.
when i'm so not into it, the circumstances that i face is what i've to be-into it. if you get it?
it turns out like even if i say yes or even if i say no, to me it's equally oh-my-(?)
horrendous.

if you say start anew, i know you don't mean literally pack your bags and flee to another country.
but for now, it's like that for me.
it's just that i've not been into the worst yet and i'm feeling this bad already.
i need to see more and y'know look at the real world.

* * *

i'm skipping lunch and gonna shower - heading for tuition!
extremely glad that next week is the very last one for sport practise and after that, my schedule will be calm once again :)

why live for others when you don't even live for yourself?
don't expect people to look up to you when you don't do that yourself.

2010-01-17T22:15:00.009+08:00

// SIOW ZHEN YANG. reply in my chatbox. where on earth are you?

it bothers me alot.

it may be my friends or family. i wanna help or do whatsoever to help them when their world just fall apart.
i really want to and i literally did. somehow if,
what i did was something that'd hurt me myself, this's wrong in my perspective.
this was not wrong but this is wrong.

you call this life.
when i take things too seriously and neglected my own feelings, i feel pathetic for myself.
but it's too hard to reject sometimes even if the other party doesn't even give a damn.
it's all in your mind, no?

it's not for you to decide whether to be sensitive or not.
that's just the way i am.
i don't need anyone to lecture me, but to guide me along.
this is what i need in a friend.
those encouragements, i need.
not to mention stuffs regarding self-esteem.

everyone wants the best for themselves, who don't? you tell.
i don't know whether whatever kinda plans in my mind are right cause i learnt to be selfish.
i need to. it's no longer about the matter that i want or vice versa.
in the real world, there's no longer what you faced in high school.
especially in the working society.
it'll be an eye opener for everyone.

i scrolled through my dearies blog.
everyone is either down or frustrated bout this or that.
my friends who're at overseas aren't settling down well.
here i go again.
but to make sure i don't go cuckoo,
i want everyone to be with smiles on their faces.
and i know you guys are doing great!

but i'm not too sure about that for myself yet.

life goes on and second week of school has just passed!
've a great week everyone!
i just gotta say i hate and i hate and i hate practicing for sports day.
:)

oh and i did lots of cleaning today.
cleaning spree. i moved out many useless items and replace with new ones.
feeling good. it's just exactly what i need to replace with within myself.
i need something that can really change me into a tougher person.
but all these, is something that you must discover on your own during your journey in life.

got too carried away! it's already 1033!
i need i need i need to drink brush and sleep right away.
it'll be a better week, you trust me and you.

:)

2010-01-16T15:58:00.003+08:00

sports day are coming up
valentine's day too
and as well as for CNY -

it's my darling-s 18th birthday today!
Kaytrieese Tee Jenn Ling & Everlyn Heng Khai Seen has just turned 18 and,
both of'em are away from JB now.
so,
i could just wish both of you a very happy birthday!
i love you both very much and - thank you heaps for doing great stuffs in my life.
just hope you guys can get back here soon!
whoops, another friend of mine.
NG QI YAO! happy birthday to you too and happy eight-teeeeen ;)

business field or medicine? or perhaps law.
i gotta start planning.

HI!
as usual, every week is hectic for me but this month would pretty much be the worst.
& i know high school is the best place for me, actually.
i don't think so initially -

plus, the working society is a 360 degree different from what i expected.
i'm starting to worry which college/course/country would i go on to persue my tertiary education.
anyways, it still early?
noooo, not.

by the way, i've got my new Zen Creative.
random-ing ;

i don't know what the future holds for me but she's such a sophisticated woman.
learn not to worry and take things easy!

2010-01-10T22:04:00.007+08:00

i love night time.
don't you?

hello there!
how've you been? you guys.
things are alright fine good at school i suppose but of course, not entirely.
but at least God granted what i wished for and things are getting on pretty well.
no doubt school is giving me this pressure, a tight one.
i mean, screw those projects or you call it grouping and you know i hate it, hahaha.
nevermind and those sports activities are killing me.
oh well.
and something surprised me is that i could concentrate better this year and so, time files
:)

glad that i get to catch up a little with those friends who are away from this part of the earth i'm stepping on and my godbrother! glad to i mean talk and share stuffs a little. i miss that guy.
hope you guys are doing fine in KL.

end of last year till now, i learnt new stuffs and i find life interesting.
not to mention those stuffs that are drowning me but somehow i presume everything is going on a natural process? how do i say this. somehow i just felt that i me myself going with the flow already if you get what i mean. i seriously wanna thank those who has been helping me out especially kimberley, peipeii, xizhe, zhenyang, joshua, angeline and agnes but the list doesn't go on.

i guess i'm starting to appreciate most of the people around me now and i don't wanna take things for granted any longer. i do that all the time and guess what changed me? you tell me.

and yeap, so many of my friends are attached now. all surprised me! as long as they're happy.
plus i'm superbly glad that there're good friends to stand by me when i'm down.
all nice.

anyways it's bedtime.
i'm done with homeworks and all all all.
i shouldn't be sitting here typing!
mom's asking to practise addmaths.

OH WAIT.
i've got my love.
ma new dress! hahaha me love.
got it from Vivo City.
i shall post up a picture of it soon.
so chao now?

yes.
take care you you you and you who's looking at the screen.
:)

2010-01-03T16:02:00.005+08:00

KYCKWLKPL

i slept like forever since last night.
woke up around 130pm and crawled down to finish up my homework which was supposed to-be-done-last-year.
feeling really down and emotional because school is like.. HI TOMORROW!
gonna finish lessons at 215 & may be skipping lunch and head to tuition which is gonna start at 230 till 645. hectic-ness, zac zac zac.

i'm gonna bear this in mind to just bear with this " 1 more year thing ".
okay, just 1 more year and i'm gonna flee.
i just wanna walk into school with a light heart and meet my fellow kawan-kawan with a real wide smile despite those i have hard feelings with :)

i hate it when my friends are going NS, sigh but this is life i must say.
and God bless those who're working!
it's a new decade and my very last year in high school.
i must make the best out of it and just bury all the setbacks that i'm facing.
all must-s.

A. be insensitive
B. put my feelings as the priority before others
C. never give a damn
D. follow my heart
E. never please others when you're drowning your own
F. be candid
G. be realistic
H. never take life seriously

that's it.
that should be my shield(s) this year, that should be enough for me to move on well.

'll be back soon when i can settle down well.
'm really feeling excited for the coming CNY which falls on the same day as Valentine's.
i love my daddy.
i love my mommy.
i love my sister.
i love my brother.
i just love my family.

that should be it.

take care y'll!

2010-01-02T15:39:00.008+08:00

mommy&daddy
is my love because,
i can never go wrong with them.

year 'O9 i got closer to mom and i shared all my valuable secrets to her. whatever kinda secrets that i shared was, i feel safe when she's carrying the same secrets for me. she has become more understanding and i love to fool around with her now while my dad, he has been the all time joker. so i'm just playing along with him all the time. whenever i wanna buy since young ( that mom doesn't allow ) he'll get it for me secretly.
i love them.

i have a sister and a brother.
a sister that never fails to teach me a lesson whenever i go wrong somewhere else,
a brother that never fails to listen to me whenever i go cuckoo or stuck here and there and,
currently, i've been facing too much of chaos that actually causes me really very down.
this new year should actually change what i shouldn't be facing in 'O9.

KAN WAI LING

i nag her all the time. being her mom most of the time and sometimes i just got too carried away and somehow neglected how she felt but she has changed to be indifferent and that's what i should learn from her. she's got all ways to deal with me whenever i break down or got crushed emotionally. i don't get to spend a lot of time with her nowdays as she's busy with her stuff and not around me most of the time but i know that she's always there when i need her. she comforted me throughout the night just for me to sleep better last night though it was just purely through msn. i used to think she was pretty biased and stuffs but most prolly that'd be because she's got more common in things with my brother. she made me realised that family always comes first and there's nothing else to rely onto but God & family. i love you, sister.

wait, let me show you a shot of my brother.

KAN YEW CHUN

both of'em make my day alive everyday when i'm sulking and putting up stupid faces.
remember the day i got drunk during early 'O9. it was during CNY dinner, sorta like a gathering with everyone and i've no idea why i felt terrible and i drank beer and wine like how a person consume plain water. they started scolding me and stopped me, of course. i was seeing yellow stars and billion of numbers in my view. they carried me upstair and put me down to sleep and that was when i started screaming and crying ( as referred )
that's also when i starting knowing they care and love me the same.
i've got this allergy to alcohol and so rashes came up and killed me. it was unbearable and went to the doctor's during midnight where both of'em accompany me and calm me down cause i was getting a jab from the doctor on my ass.

i learnt that i can have nothing but,
GOD, DADDY, MOMMY, JIEJIE AND KORKOR.

wait,

ONG XI ZHE

he has been a real awesome godbrother. what he did was pretty much the same like how my siblings did. i'm glad he was there whenever i'm starting to think not logically and all but don't get cheated by his innoncent looking. he's so much like a crazy guy, haha and that's also when you're about to know him better. i'll wish him all the best in college and also return JB in no time to attend my "wedding". continue to strive hard if you're to complete your Master/PhD in 10 years time. * ahem *

and also, pray that sissy will get to graduate in time this year and be an official Accountant. bid farewell to Sunway College for good.

clearing the mess in my room later and get ready for school soon!

2010-01-01T23:45:00.010+08:00

went for supper at Old Town on New Year Eve. decided to go for a walk at Danga Bay and yeah we started our journey but sadly, couldn't didn't make it. the queue was like 9000 km and yeah, as scary as that. helped dad&mom to sent so many messages till' my fingers went numb BUT the line was real bad.

new year.
decided to go over to Desaru ( once in a million times that i succeeded begging my parents)
i was like so happy and dang. the road using the shortcut to that side wasn't completed yet so too bad so sad, seriously. had KFC for lunch at a very far-far-far away place near Desaru which makes me mad. hope this Sunday will be a turn on. went to Station 1 for supper&i shall say this main course i had was a no-no for me.

i need a serious weight management treatment.

& bought assessment/revision books which scared the hell outta me when mom kept taking more and more which means my brain is gonna burst in no time.

say hi to secondary 5!
SPM kills? not really. "enjoy the process, not the results" .......
right...... how easy you can say but try it yourself.

PL, stop being sensitive 'cause sensitivity KILLS. but how true that we learn through hard times. way to go, buck up!

it's 2nd of January, New Year? NO.
it's VICTORIA CHEW'S BIRTHDAY! a very nice friend. she's there whenever you need her&she's special.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN VICKY! i love you.
:) enjoy your big awesome day! xoxo

2009-12-31T17:57:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR! HAPPY 2010!
i wanna get my license right after SPM,
i wanna get everything back in the right track.

the final outing for 2009

2009-12-31T17:09:00.008+08:00

we're always ask one another 'let's hang out!' and as always it's a no, things didn't work but serious case this time. went to TC yesterday with my dear KayKay Jie! and my dear Fatty Evy! :D

we got this theme as in our attire must be a white long sleeve&jeans but it seems like everyone looks completely different. the so called triplets day! :p hehehe anyways, i was like so blind looking for them in Harris. plus, Kay jie went to get pressies for her boyfee as he's going to NS soon. went printing out those pictures all and later on, we headed to The Chicken Rice Shop but Evy and i tak jadi makan, had the rainbow delight.

watched ALVIN&THE CHIPMUNKS 2! :)
nice nice nice all nice. somehow the first one was better i think. i noticed Kay was sneezing here&there while Evy&I was like laughing HA-HA-HA while watching. i love Theadore! fyi, Kay jie watched that for the very second round so it's kinda bored for her already.

went to Food&Tea instead of Egg House cause their food weren't ready, how cuckoo uh? screw that, i wanted to eat their tomyam so badly. ordered like a plate of pasta with fillet&this sandwich. i didn't finish everything, they were so awful! like seriously. ask Evy, she's got the same opinion. the skinny woman (Kay jie) drank the yam juice which actually arrived when our main courses are almost finishing. zac zac zac zacc

hung around&camwhored.

Evy : Eh, what flowers you like ah?
Kay : Don't know.. Pretty flowers?

Kay : How many boyfriends she had?
Evy : Ask PL.
Me : Ten eh.
Kay&Evy : oh my goat?! ten?
Me : noo.
Kay&Evy : then?
Me : eight to ten!

HAHA. HAHA. HAHA. HAHA. HAHA.

I was like so gonna laugh, LOL.
the script wasn't so right but something like that, heh.

Evy bought Jie a elephant toothbrush holder&wanted to pay but the queue was like snake so she hid it in one of the bags in display there. cuteness overload. Kay jie went back first and we kinda bid farewell :( ahh, it'd be such long time if we were to meet again! Evy and i then went to window shopped a lil' and met her friend. funny one! laughed our asses off. :D she bought this Nano White thing and the promoter was like talking so much! andwijfoaruiwofhnwaodhuwaeohaiowhiwwaowo and Evy was like I'LL BUY IT. :p

<3
evy's punya skill so good. :P

picture of us!
finally can fit 3 of us.
i had fun.

but,
i'm gonna miss you both very much.
all the best in KL and seriously, meet up when you guys are back alright?
LOVE Y'BOTH!
xoxo

refer to,

KAYKAYKAYJIE's blog & EVYEVYEVY's for more.

2009-12-29T14:59:00.009+08:00

holidays are good except for my night.
i slept around 3-4am these days and that's causing me to wake up at noon.
yesterday, i've got this must-must mood (if you get what i mean) to get onto my bad for an earlier night. who knows my awesome siblings woke me up at 1159pm and "invited" me to go check out a new redbox near my place. not literally redbox but somehow it's a place for ya to sing your asses off.

my jeh jeh <3

i must say it wasn't too bad :)
but the PA thing was pretty much a nuisance. had a hard time dealing with that thing and indeed, there was something wrong and we've got a larger room in return. the service? all good.

showing ya this,
so please.
get ready.

*

*

*

*

the video of me singing the song My Heart Will Go On went cuckoo.
sorry!

anyways, there's this part where my sister and i was singing American Idiot.
trying to catch those words and we said .......... whuidwahuwhh " FUCK " then we stopped&we look at one another and started laughing like we never before.
vulgar lyrics are nice, so that we get the chance to say it. ahh no hahahaha kidding.
if you're my friend you'd know i wouldn't actually use that word.
so yeah thumbs up to me!
kidkidkidding! again.

going out with KayKay and Evy tomorrow.
perhaps it's gonna be my very last outing with friends this 'O9.

i've been wanting to write a very huge post about this year.
should get it started, soon.

:)
x

2009-12-28T00:22:00.002+08:00

i should be thankful, seriously.

back back back.
now's 0022! the night is still young. went out with yc, zk, jg. i needa be thankful over this that i still get the chance to see him. okay no, them. :)
my legs were shivering! how crazy.

i just realised this myself that sitting together and just chit-chatting away is totally awesome&that seems to be a better idea than going shopping & see your $$ fly away with its wings, unless getting stuffs that's needed.

there's 2 things i needa clarify.
I'm a pure chinese (maybe no) + i did not dye my hair, TOTALLY.

2009-12-27T15:22:00.012+08:00

flee now. school's haunting me again.

2009-12-26T00:13:00.016+08:00

christmas? okay it's too late for a christmas post, it's OO15 am. hello! it's 26th november 2OO9 now :) boo-hoo, x'mas is over. still, i'm posting up some pictures we took at church during x'mas eve celebration!

didn't know it was j's dlsr, mistaken it was vic's! but whatever credits to both of them, the pretty-s :)

♥ joanne

was so unhappy that night, so much sad emotions till i've no idea how to describe! but 100% happy that joanne&vicky were there though we didn't really getta catch up! happy to have friends like both of'em y'know. met 2 new friends! Li Ying&Jasmine, nice&fun peeps. crazy too! :) sadly, i wasn't in the condition to have fun. i feel bad putting a fake smile here and there. I HATE THAT, y'know? you don't? nevermind, you don't care do you?

♥ vicky

♥ stella

presents from hannah&stella&weiwan! okay, weiwan? not x'mas gift but a lolipop for i don't know what reason. thank you anyway! :)reach home around 3 am, poor thing eh? sent Joshua, Theng Wei&Qiyao home first tho. Xizhe wasn't there, how evil. :( it's been like forever since i stepped into church, but somehow God gave me the courage too.

what to do when you're sad? my answer, try to be happy! this's seriously lame but make sense huh? went to Danga Bay & Jusco at Bukit Indah for a walk. it's my first time to the Jusco there can you believe that?! :D it's always Tebrau Jusco, not always but FOREVER and ever we're stuck to that. so, it's gonna be new year in a couple of days time! i'm so not looking forward but just gonna pretend saying yeah weh i love it much much.

just realised that my new layout doesn't show any title thing & i felt that i'm blogging so differently today, my attitude. typing too much, so yeah ciao!

freedom addiction

2009-12-23T14:34:00.007+08:00

i'd wanna live beside the sea in the future.
relaxing&calm, don't you think so?

so i'm pretty sure i'm going to church tomorrow.
so what's with tomorrow? christmas eve! 'll be starting pretty late, so yeah everyone is gonna countdown together &&& a few friends of mine are coming too! sadly, didn't get to prepare any gifts for anyone as i thought i won't be going. unlike last year, started preparing for most of my friends but ended up there were some more with me. God's giving me the courage to go this round!

i'm doom.
i haven't started on my works&all.
& yes, vicky's birthday is just so near!

sometimes you just gotta admit to your life. people wouldn't be please no matter how hard you try to. so why bother giving it a damn?

facelift

2009-12-22T16:24:00.018+08:00

don't hestitate,
she is..
EVERLYN HENG KHAI SEEN, for sure.

this makeover? credits to that hot girl above. she's been such a great help. feel bad cause she helped me to deal with everything till 4am last night. should be feeling pretty guilty huh? yeah i do. i've this urge to actually write, write and write about this fatty but no.... shall wait till 16th January 2010, you too. :D thank you very very very much vyvy! loves all around.

so what now? mhm i realised 'O9 is coming to an end.
all my sec 5 friends are leaving high school and going all around the world to persue their studies.
i'm feeling kinda down and of course i'll be doing the same next year.
it's pretty much like a cycle.
everyone has to do this, so why am i feeling this?
still, i'm gonna hang out with'em before they dissapear!
great chance to catch up with one another, yep.
smile smile smile.

next i'm doing this tag, by Evy!
goodness me, it's been such a long time since we've been doing this don't you think so? :)
dejavu dejavu.

First Name : kan
Nickname : Ah Pui, PuiLing, Fatso Ling, LingLing, PuiPui
Name you wish you had : pacifier! kidding kidding, i love my name.
What do people normally mistake your name for : carpooling ( ridiculous, no? )
Birthday : 23rd November 1993
Birthplace : ipoh
Time of Birth : 1am ++
Single or taken : single
Zodiac sign : sagittarius

- Your Appearance -

How tall are you : 153 cm
Wish you were taller : of course, my '10 resolution. at least 160 cm
Eye colour : dark brown
Eye colour you want : dark brown
Natural Hair color : reddish brownish blackish
Current Hair color : reddish brownish blackish
Short or long hair : long
Ever dye your hair a bizarre color : nope
Last time you did something dramatic with your hair : yeah
Glasses or contacts : glasses
Do you wear make-up : eyeliner
Ever had hair extensions : nehh
Paint your nails : yepp but hate to clean my nails :D

- In the Opposite Gender -

What color eyes : black
What color hair : dark brown/black
Shy or Outgoing : moderately
Looks or personality : average
Sexy or Cute : cute
Serious or Fun : mixed
Older or Younger than you : older
A turn on : refreshing smell
A turn off : odour

- This or That -

Flowers or Chocolates : both?
Pepsi or Coke : neither
Rap or Rock : waltz? hahaha
Relationship or One-night stand : relationship
School or Work : always changes kinda thing
Love or Money : both required
Movies or Music : music
Country or City : still hestitating
Sunny or Rainy days : rainy!
Friends or Family : family

- Have You Ever -

Lied : yes yes yes
Stole something : still feeling guilty
Song : sentimental
Scent : refreshing kinda smell/strong type isn't bad too
Color : no specific ones
Movie : TITANIC!
Singer : find out on your own!
Word : " i know i know! "
Junk food : chips
Website : pairyfluffy.blogspot.com
Location : JB
Animal : wish i had one but definitely not dogs!
Ever cried over someone : yes
Is there anything you wish you could change about yourself : yeap
Do you think you're attractive : at times yes and no
If you had to choose a fairytale as your life what would you choose : :)
Do you play any sports : badminton

- The Rules -
Link to your taggers and post these rules.
List eight random facts about yourself and tag eight people.
1. i am sensitive, totally
2. crybaby
3. i hate sweating when i'm not exercising
4. i eat alot
5. sleeping is my ultimate hobby
6. i like talking about the facts of life
7. i'm always appearing offline in msn
8. i wanna go to antartic one day

Tag, you're it ;
- 'm not tagging any cause i know most of you wouldn't even be doing it. go ahead for those who feel like it!

catch-ups

2009-12-21T23:28:00.019+08:00

totally love this one!

happy birthday, LEE CHIEN YEE!
happy 16th!
'm so glad all of us are 16 now.
going to be 17 soon, how time flies you see.
:)

great time today!
karyn came and many others.
time wasn't much but really glad to see her&everyone else!
we shall have this again someday.
:)

love y'll.

sensitivity

2009-12-17T11:04:00.010+08:00

went to east coast for picnic yesterday.
botakjones for dinner!
at soup spoon too! all wonderful.
the sunset was beautiful.
and of course, i love the sea even more.
i feel happy while observing the tides y'know, like i feel relaxed that kinda stuffs. ;)
had so much fun laughing but didn't get to play at the beach cause it was pretty dark when i wanted to go down so yeah, another time.
returning to jb tomorrow and gonna plan this hectic schedule with friends to catch up with'em.
how nice!
see y'll around.

thank you, Agnes

2009-12-14T10:47:00.008+08:00

back at sg.
watched couples retreat & zombieland.
was all good.

've this urge to leave after spm.

i shall wait.
she's driving me nuts.
what's more a friend i used to love.
life has just begun.

& someone let me own a cat please.

we shall take a good look at ourselves before stating that " i hate copycatters! "
i'm very sure, so do you.
don't flare up, give it a thought and there you go.

KIA STANDS FOR KARYN IS AWESOME ♥

2009-12-11T10:47:00.006+08:00

going back to jb later, back to sg on sunday.
i miss my mom's cooking.

luge

2009-12-09T09:59:00.009+08:00

hi.

apparently, spm the number one killer (NOT) are over.

sad case for me.
i'll miss my seniors like so.... much.
hard to fit it into words but seriously, i sayang'em alot.
zhenkang, xizhe, weiwan, joshua gan, qiyao.
top ones.

zk, a guy which makes me crazy (not really) hhaha, but he gets on my nerves all time.
always do stuffs against me in a way yes, delibrately.
but yea, he's a good friend tho he breaks my heart alot, lol.
those times spent with him really taught me alot.
what made me today, all.
really hope to see him soon!
love this dude.

xz, my godbro, a good one but he drives me mad too.
at times i feel like boxing him as well, haha.
this year was a better for us cause we're closer?
unforgettable moments where he came to my house to fetch my bro&i to go study (NOT) at mac.
in fact, we sat there aimlessly and do crazy stuffs.
he's a crazy guy i tell'y, trust me.
was there when i needed someone&taught me so many stuffs.
for-own-good kinda thing&calms me down whenever i go crazy/emotional.
love him.
too much to say so next,

ww, a girl that's so awesomely nice.
treats me like her own sister.
she gave me all the confidence that i lack of&build me up all the time when i got crushed down.
xxxx mhm and those sleepovers, baking moments are pure awesome.
wish that she'll pull through whatever stuffs that's holding her back now and,
i love her.

jg, this dude's always being so sombong ( hahaha ) !!
being sucha smartass and he's the one helping me alot in my studies.
explaining to me stuffs through messages, how crazy huh?
cheering up with when i tell him my saddy saddy stuffs.
& those times where we criticize those celebrities, etc.
when y're with him there's only one thing to do.
CRITICIZE! :)

qy, so... this one here.
sien already, see him like 365 days in a year. :D
kidding kidding.
so he's the one guiding me alot too, especially in my addmaths.
he's pretty fierce the other time i remember cause i was driving him nuts.
i didn't understand what he taught well so, he flared up.
normal huh?
but he's nice.
always tell me stuffs that encourage me tons.

oh by the way, these are some pics that we took for the past few days.
when i was on the luge, there were some accidents! :D
had a hard time driving it but it was all fun.
& had a climb in bukit timah which makes me feel like i've lost 10 kg-s later on! xD
don't mind me...

iwantyourbadromance

2009-12-08T10:02:00.002+08:00

full full full full.
bloated stomach i've now. breakfast was good :)
went to flyer&merlion yesterday, had out dinner at Coffee Bean.
dinner was filling&almost puked when there was this couple kept kissing beside the sea.
things would be different if that was before dinner, haha whatever right?

bad dream last night. joanne, vicky, evelyn&eunice was in it.

it's gonna be 12 soon! i'm gonna step into the kitchen and deal with those stuffs. ;)
gonna prepare italian-like dishes, hehhee.
i'm sure you'll vaguely notice there's a huge difference in my current pictures.
fat-----ness.
i've been eating too much i must admit that. why why why why why why why!
this's driving me crazy but i've to strive hard.
i just wanna look normal... that's it.
goin'for a swim tonight.
'll back w. my "normal" weight next year.

rynn, when're you back?

yes! forgot about this. watched New Moon.
mhmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm, i've no idea why but i just felt that Twilight was better?
and and i'm starting to like Taylor Lautner ( i can't i can't i can't betray Robert P') after watching.
hahah, but his nose is still a lil' weird to me. jeez!

2847907849384792 kg

2009-12-07T10:25:00.004+08:00

phoning mommy! xxx

heyo, so fun seeing ma friends enjoying their weekends so well.
hah, sec five students are having their last few papers tomorrow except for those who's taking chinese.

woke up pretty early today.. & my nose bleed. ha, sucha great feeling when i look down, saw birds flying around freely in the sky, kids having fun in the pool&winds blowing across my face. it could have been better if there was rainbow. :D btw, i'm fat now.

hope my rheumatism wouldn't act up or i'll _____ :)
have fun you people!

two is better than one

2009-12-02T14:38:00.011+08:00

i deleted all what i wrote for i-don't-know-what-reason.
ahh, nevermind. ;)
hello everlyn i think of you and i feel like crying
i don't know why but i love you bye.
HAHAHA

back w. updates when i'm at sg!
xxxxxxxxxx

15 & 13

2009-11-28T16:26:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY ADRIAN YONG THE BABOON EC MAN!
&
HAPPY 13th BIRTHDAY JOSEPH GAN THIS CUTIE!

sometimes life ;

2009-11-26T23:20:00.011+08:00

can be so \m/ rocking cool.
i really wanna analyse what's going on in some humans' brain which causes their reaction to be so crazily cool as in really cool as in their awesome reaction really piss me off to the max. cool. i know, yes i know everyone reacts differently to everyone based on some facts that he/she hates he/she, better word to use " dislike " or perhaps he/she's having mood swings/menopause (most probably not). but hey what if that "problem" started right from the start? their attitude/treatment, should i say it again.

we should actually love each other as friends? cz we WERE/ARE/WLL BE on the same boat. but your shitty attitude drives me crazy&i won't return to the boat any longer.

that's only one thing to end this : YOU KNOW NOTHING ABOUT ME REGARDLESS HOW YOU ACTUALLY JUDGE ME FROM THE BEGINNING.
but i'm old enough to deal with this, I HOPE.
i'm always saying " ah what, i'm 16 " so yea seriously, this's the time to get my feet on the ground and start off my journey with the sounds of how a dinasour walks that scares everyone off. lame.

no vulgarities.
tho it kept storming into brain.

summer?! let's get it kickin' ;)
shopping tomorrow! yee-haa that'll help me to de-stress. ciao! it's bedtime.

my sweet-sexy-silly 16!

2009-11-23T21:42:00.009+08:00

finally 16! :D
thank you too each one of you who wished/will be wishing me!
those voice message, piano tunes & all.
thank you.
i had fun.
<3
all the other pics are up on facebook!

i'm gonna give my best to deal everything in a correct manner
because,
being 16 is a big deal for me.
i wouldn't let you down this time.

why you so obsessed with me

2009-11-20T23:24:00.003+08:00

the title is crazy, i know. who's the singer again? brain's not functioning, again. ;)

oh hey hi! so i went to watch 2012 today. & it was just awesome, to me & my brother. really, i mean it's kinda meaningful & all. was in rush so didn't get to shop for the dress i wanted. i kept saying 2010 2010 2010 for i-don't-know what reason. guess what? i saw Jasmine today! miss her so much. thought was which robber grabbing hold of my hand. well we didn't get to catch up cause i was rushing home. went to La Pasta for dinner! pre-birthday celebration. :) sis's going out now & hope she'll do what she promised. hehhee :D

'll be back to upload tonsa pictures after my birthday! i wanna go for movie marathon.. anyone?

get well soon, sara buttie! 'll be praying for you. :)

SPM

2009-11-18T12:47:00.002+08:00

hey there! so i managed to wake up at 4am to cook. 'm really glad that my brother's pushing himself for it! made some for his friends but he forgot to bring to school. that's like &#$^@&*
okay, let him off. HAHAHA. will continue to prepare breakfast for him till spm ends.

spent like four hours to make cards for 8 person.
today's only the first day of war. continue bucking up! it'll be over soon guys&girls.
when you've finish each paper, forget 'bout whatever mistakes you've made.
look forward.
:)

class gathering tonight!

cookie monster

2009-11-14T16:20:00.016+08:00

everyone's working! i'm tempted to too. it's always better to do something than sticking your ass on the chair the whole day. i can have more $$ too! :) so ideas, anyone? no long terms kind. maybe only for a few days? that'll do actually. do tell me 'bout it! xx

hungover

2009-11-12T16:10:00.017+08:00

happy girl for now.
:)

yes definitely, so exams are done. what's next? my 16th birthday. :D
time flies & i actually didn't realise it's november already!
awesome.

went for supper at Black Canyon&Vivo yesterday! the best thing was brother drove us there. weehee! without mom's permission tho. had a pathetic time looking for the present i wanna get and eventually i got none. alright, nevermind and now i couldn't go for Mindy's party today. how great..

school's boring & of course i felt deadly bored. havta return books & all. but it was all great to see friends for the last few times this year. :D

♥
i've no idea how to deal with my fringe eh? i've this urge to snip it off at times :)

crap. addmaths's the torturous subject i've ever done. 38%

i want'y to know, it doesn't matter

2009-11-06T23:02:00.013+08:00

hello! walking zombie's on the run.

\m/

dinner.

tuna shrunk+eggs sandwich. :D
sis made for me while i was burning midnight oil.

dinner.

& so, last week i prepared a few dishes. hehehe, you can't believe this? neither do i. but it was edible. made salad, garlic bread, spaghetti, prego sauce ( counted okay! HAHA ) i steamed the broccoli, whoah man. it was awesome. you hear that, not awful. :)

i needa get on to bed earlier, brain system isn't functioning well as you know i haven't been sleeping well. i talk crap and nonsense cz i've got a retard brain, period. ooh yea, i've lost 3 kg-s. two lil' tiny colourless pimples popped out from my forehead which caused me to get a shock. stress -

be back soon ;)
chemistry, bio and addmaths to come.
x

lean on me, i'll lead the way.

configuration.

2009-11-06T15:16:00.007+08:00

november babies! let me see.
10th ; sara! my butty & esther!
12th ; mindy! my fierco.

i'm missing out on so many things w/o surfing the net these days. something positive i hope! :) and and a few days more, exams' coming to an end&me can't wait like seriously. ghaghagha! didn't really get to sleep for the past weeks cz needa burn midnight oil and all. i mean 3-4 hours, i'm like a walking zombie now. thank you sara aka butty for keeping me awake! hehehe.

& samantha wong, i'm effin angry at you. i don't know man, why all these are now running through my head. you can make me happy and sad without any reason. that's the worst thing of all. i feel like giving you and myself a tight slap now.

5 days to merdeka! love.

despite my shiatty exams,

2009-10-30T18:29:00.004+08:00

i just wanna tell this darling here to cheer up! :)

CHRISTYCHONGJACHIH, you know you rock.
not many people can be as determine as you're.
say bye to rainy days and damp clouds.
i'll see you very soon after my exams! i wanna be your sun :)
luvluvluv.

oh well.
speaking of exams, i'm pretty numb about it. 13 papers to go! God'll see me thru' i know. though i shit for the previous paper, i don't give a damn anymore. i've no idea completely why do i've to make those silly mistakes, i mean regardless of those careless mistakes or the fact that I DID NOT HAND IN MY ANOTHER SHEET OF EXAM PAPER, i'm a total failure. had a hard time getting over this but manage to deal with my feelings so yeah, thanks mom!

ciao for now. going for my superb dinner.
ciao stress cells.

x

2610

2009-10-16T19:42:00.009+08:00

EXAMS? LOVIN'IT.

so basically i've contributed nothing to my brain, like i said.
i care. vaguely

:)

i need help like so much.
stop procrastinating.
i just miss you, can' i?

open your eyes and ; see

2009-10-13T00:07:00.013+08:00

here's one back for you RA-RA! :D
you don't know her uh? see her picture also tau she crazy-crazy one! heheh
you too must buck up for our year end WAR okay! so damn fast right?
do well then i belanja you lolipop. nice can! :)
then i give you lovelove, HAHAHA crazy language.
but seriously, study okay.
13 days left.
like you said, love all the subjects! :)

♥

some friends are the current companions in high school and some eternally. god knows if they're our future colleagues when we're out to the society? we gotta just treat all of our friends right and just go along with 'em despise of how they think of us and all. those who feel left out among friends have to just find out what's going on. think of why are they treating you this and that way.
basically, treat others just like the way how you want others to treat you. fair and square. it's something common which all human beings understand but too reluctant to do so. criticism? accept or leave it. you've got nothing to do once this just smack onto your face. some will maybe give it a chance to maybe soul-search. literally, there'll be a crack in one's relationship. just take ALL these as an experience while growing up. everyone has been through that, ask around and that's the answer.
when you look back in the future, it'll be great memories to look upon. you're only 16 for once, 17 for once in your life. every moments you spent will turn to be histories as time passes. great ones perhaps? optimistic, pessimistic. it's all up to everyone of us. of course, there'll be bad times where we'll feel so down like the world has collapsed. but it'll pass! like how sun takes over rainy days. it's a cycle that everyone will have to face. things will look great at another perspective. don't you agree? don't say it's easy to say not to do it BUT give it a try! it wouldn't harm would it?

heyy! my week has been okay. so-so. no further comments 'bout it. yours? :)
a miracle happened today. oh man, i feel so awesome 'bout it. somehow, i wish it didn't happened cause it causes me to heartache now. :D BE THANKFUL BE THANKFUL

great. for the pmr-ers. tomorrow's the lst day. everyone's gonna jump for joy and conquer the shopping malls. for me, long hard week to go..... SARA WONG RUI XIAN THE BUTTY! :D YOU JIAYOU TOO OKAY! exam's on the 26th. technically, i've contributed nothing to my brain now. studied N-O-T-H-I-N-G. alright, time to stop ranting&off to bed. tuition tomorrow.... again. great! :)

GOODNIGHTS SLEEPERS!

'm so glad that you actually replied. but i doubt there'll be next time..... you know how much it means to me? you don't but thank you.
& i'm sorry. i hope a small apology will actually help a lil' though it seem to be useless ; if you're reading this. pretty impossible though....

H I A T U S N O T

2009-10-08T22:46:00.003+08:00

HI, PUILING HAS GONE BERSERK FOR THE MOMENT.
SHE TRIED ( NO ) TO AVOID FROM THOSE DISTRACTION-S. YET SHE COULDN'T, BECAUSE SHE MISSES SARA WONG TOO MUCH THAT SHE SPAMMED IN HER CHATBOX.

LAMEBUTT! YOUR TURN, OH PLEASE.
GO WRITE-WRITE-WRITE CAUSE I NEEDA SEE SOMETHING FROM YOU TO CHEER ME UP.

:D
♥

♥

2009-10-04T12:48:00.011+08:00

promises are meant to be broken ;

2009-10-04T12:17:00.003+08:00

you told me that ; both

ciao! ♥

you spinned my head ;

2009-10-02T21:39:00.008+08:00

hey. depressed girl is on the run! that's what i told everyone, not.
haven't been blogging for a week, which is something good. won't be coming here so frequent any longer. i'm kinda addicted using the net mhm, i bet 98% most of you people are the same. but at times when i login facebook, blogger etc, everything turns upside down. sorta like ruin my mood. i've no idea why but the idea of coming here doesn't seem to be pleasant anymore. why why why! :)

oh well, hormones is attacking. but what i said is true you see. too many distractions and i've to pay for it ; whatever that will cause me any side effects. hmm, anyways. i've been doing pretty good recently! :) went for mission at orang asli's, somewhere where i learnt alot. it's a long break again next week! best of luck to sec three students! you guys are gonna do good. :D

soo, celebrated DAD's birthday yesterday! i knew he was overjoyed! :) had chinese cuisine instead of western. cake, i ate quite abit! i'm on strict diet mind you. cool eh? :)
some pics for the past few days ;

human tend to make mistake so often that they no longer know how to forgive themselves. me, yes me.
i'm tolerating and yup, forgiving as well.
a great breakthrough! PL is now listening to sympony type of songs. no more, it's hard and brother is too doing the same! :) there's so many more to go through, & i believe faith can bring everything on earth possible. what do you think?

i guess God spoke quite alot to me recently. He's always doing that but my time wasn't occupied for him but am now. i really wanna be what i used to be, i'm not gonna pretend to be who i wanna be because i'm gonna be what i was borned to be. make it comfortable, BE YOUSELF.

been so long since i wrote any long post ; meaningful ones.
to me, this's something i longed to write about but inspiration just wasn't there. i miss my friends! & i just added vicky on msn, i realised that i didn't add her since she changed her add. baddd! i miss you v! and weiling! denise! kaytriesse! karyn! everlyn! sharonnya! michelle! jc! eunice! ; the list goes on. i wanna hang out with all the coolies of mine. you can't imagine how awesome can they be, from the bottom of my heart.

happy birthday Jabez! official 22 :D
happy birthday Jasmine! official 16 :D

i love my rocking family. they rock so hard ; usual quote!

be thankful. we have nice shirts, cool shoes, awesome family. ever seen those with torn clothing and filthy body and what's more a broken family? we can even come online doing what we wanna do. ask those whose in desperate condition, do they even have a choice to say what they WANNA do? no, they don't. we're given so many chances and choices in life but we demand more each time we get more. things just rush into my mind? why everyone is born in different conditions and they've to torture so much while we're given sucha comfortable life where everyone tend to ask for more?

it's time for everything to change, and i mean everything.

surviving!

2009-09-23T22:49:00.006+08:00

the clouds faded away,
like you did.

i don't look like a boy okay! when i was 5 i think. :D

officially back to jb, what a bad feeling! meaning everything is getting on the starting point again. be optimistic girl! :)
pictures are on facebook but not all. had a tough time doing that.
been thinking alot during the holidays, i'm actually bringing it on my own. i can't do this anymore, be realistic. when i'm starting to move on, there's just something holding me back. it's so torturing. i made that call again, again and again. but today, i don't have the courage to do so anymore, because it's time to let go, what? let go.
i wonder what's next..

tuition tomorrow! missed one today. mission trip on sat-sun! 'll be superb tiring. mhmm.
i guess i gotta leave here for a moment. grh, haven't start my piles of work yet. tell me howw. :D HAHA

did treatment&cut my hair short, sadly, just to please my mom. get over it.. looks superbly short when i let it down but normal when i tie it. i can't believe i just cut it?! normally if you ask me to do that, it's a hard NO. but why this round? 'cause i ought to change its feature. i did something that i'll never do, and the same, i'll move on without you.

don't mind me, i'm just being random.
ciao!

She's back,

2009-09-22T15:25:00.006+08:00

hey, i'm back to my blog with sorrows. the trip was pure fun. i had tons to tell about but not here, maybe i'll let the pics talk another time.

i'm going back to jb tomorrow. i hope i can control myself. emotional cells kill.

brother got his phone, so good right. jealous. hah.

i saw a something durin'my trip. i miss it.

not saying this out of a sudden, but the burden that i'm carrying has revealed everything. i don't think this is a secret anymore.

i really hate myself for doing this. hate what i did. tell me if deserve a chance to make it up to you.

i'm sorry.

sometimes i really wonder why if someone did something wrong, it ruins the whole impression that was given last time. i really miss'y.

you may not believe what i told you over the phone months ago but, i meant it. tell me what can i do just to change the whole picture.

i've found a place to adapt.

2009-09-13T12:18:00.006+08:00

guess where we were! :] ♥

& 'bout the title, i really did.

heyy it's sunday, again. dreadful. feeling so psst cause'tomorrow-tomorrow-tomorrow, what? school.
what to do, life's like that. oh my, i've been repeating that quote since forever. let's see. hmm, mom, dad, sissy are out. brother and i home alone since yesterday? yesterday was fun though we were like tired. :]

yay! there's no tuition tomorrow cause my addmaths teacher's going for an operation. but i do miss laughing durin'his class! it's so fun and hunting for food in his house. :D but anyhow, another friend of mine's gonna teach me and stuffs.

mom called to check on us! looking at another perspective, it's awesome to have a mom like this.
i'm going off now cause i do think i've a extremely huge problem. before i'm on the net, i've thought i've tons to blog about but neh now dots.

ciaociao!
have a great last week of school. esp for spm students! i bet many will go cuckoo once it's over. what do you think? hehehe.

♥♥